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You Can Do Hard Things

The Shadow Self
You Can Do Hard Things
A message to my children, and a message to you…
You can do hard things.
You can endure the most horrible pain in ways no one can comprehend.
You can make hard choices.
You don’t have to be a victim to yourself, life, or anyone else. But if you choose to be a victim, know that you are a victim first of your own self.
Healing is hard. Being a victim is easy.
I’m not formally educated. I’m not a doctor or a psychologist. I have not trained to become a shaman. I am a student of life, educated by pain, trauma, and abuse.
I can’t heal you. You have to heal you. I can’t force you to be ready. I can’t make you want it. I can’t instill in you what I felt when I got soooo sick of my own bullshit. So sick of being sick. So sick of being a victim, of being a martyr, trained to surrender my highest good for nothing of value at all… I can’t empower you that way. You have to reach your own breaking point.
I hope I have shown you that despite any pain you may face that if I can endure, so can you, and if I can heal, so can you. I hope you learn from me that you can do hard things, and endure hard things and that no matter what you’re facing in life that you can do all the hard things. Even create joy, sometimes that’s the hardest thing to do and takes the most courage, but you can sure do it.
Music for the moment
I Can Do Hard Things ~ Jennifer Nettles https://youtu.be/OmAoBiF-MDo

Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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Heal Your Traumas Before

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Heal Your Traumas Before

 

How do heal your trauma before it’s a problem?

 

Here lately there is a new trending post going around that says “You should heal your traumas before you have children.” They all vary in ways of delivering this message, but the bottom line is your value as a parent is greatly diminished or even that you being their parent in this unhealed state is even detrimental to the child. This is the most toxic statement I have ever read, and I have read many. But it affects everyone, even those without children in so many negative ways. We all had parents, right?

 

Now in all logic, I know no mother is going to read this and say, “oh wait, I’m damaged and have trauma. Better not hurt the babies anymore!” and just walk out. That doesn’t make the message any less toxic to our self-worth and healing. 

 

So let’s have some real talk about trauma.

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Heal You Traumas Before

First of all, I don’t actually know anyone who is completely free of trauma. Everyone I have ever met, if they wanted to admit it or not, had some wound inside of them that shaped their every day. Everyone I know suffers from some symptom of trauma if not several; a sleep condition, anxiety, depression, and of course there are many others. This often results in health conditions over time; memory loss, stomach problems like ulcers or IBS, and even cancer have been rampant in those suffering with self-worth issues as this is the house of our Sacral Chakra, right in our stomach. The Sacral Chakra is where we carry our self-worth. 

 

So let’s talk about trauma and the best time to heal it. Because what happens if you can’t heal the trauma before you have kids? Maybe you weren’t ready or maybe the trauma hadn’t occurred yet. Much of my own trauma was experienced as an adult after I had my children. It’s certainly not their fault, but I can’t forfeit being their mother because I faced struggles. If every mother did that we’d all be orphans. 

 

I can only hope that in my healing my children will see what’s possible. They will see that everyone can break, no one is safe, but that equally everyone can heal. That you can take responsibility for your weaknesses as much as you can your joys, and in doing so there is power and transformation.

 

This is the message I hope to share.

 

So when is the right time to heal?

 

Have you ever experienced a time when you felt crazed by your pain? Angered and tormented, frustrated by yourself, your reaction, your emotions?

 

Have you heard the phrase, “You always hurt the one you love?” Have you ever yelled at someone you loved? What about physical reactions? Have you ever thrown anything or struck at someone out of anger or frustration?

 

When these instances happen it is our wounds calling out to us for help. Screaming is more accurate.

 

These are messages from your subconscious telling you that your wounds are ready to heal and they are so ready that they are going to become more and more aggressive against you until you listen. 

 

The best time to heal is when you’re able to recognize the need to heal. But if we don’t know how then there’s no ability to even if it is the best time. So when do we heal? Whenever we can! However we can! Whatever it takes.

 

Since childhood, we’re taught to ignore and brush off pain and to keep moving. We’re filled with programming and really have to combat this on a daily basis, some of us from the time of conception. If your mother struggled with her health, physical or mental then you were programmed with these same traits since conception. But no one teaches us how to combat it usually. If we’re blessed, we are born into love though and have a loving supportive family despite its problems despite its challenges, there is love in the home. So yes, of course as mothers we would love to be fully healed before carrying our children so as not to perpetuate this cycle of such negative early on programming. We’re burdened with enough shame and guilt as it is, aren’t we?

 

I spent most of my children’s lives in a state of guilt and shame for my physical and mental struggles both. In an ideal world, I would love to shield them from this. However, looking around, this is nothing like my ideal world or theirs! 

 

This is actually called shame-shielding. Who labeled it that? I did. Just now. 

 

You’ll see this in parents who don’t want their children to watch any progressive movies or books that express sensitive topics. 

 

Parents around the world are shielding their children from their flaws, painting on fake smiles while they suffer trauma in silence until it eats them from the inside out. Like it did me, it landed me in the hospital for physical symptoms not mental symptoms, for years and 7 surgeries in between literally hundreds of hospital stays. Some parents are shame-shielding their children from violence and other kinds of abuse. Some parents are shame-shielding from their mental wounds and challenges, hiding their depression, not claiming their challenges like being bipolar. 

 

It is these denials that deepen our wounds, cause them to lash out further, and wound our loved ones. It is the repression of our emotions, shoving them into the box and ignoring them away that is the act of saving them for later!

 

Think of your emotions like leftovers from a not so great Mexican restaurant that you don’t want to throw out because that’s wasteful, but don’t want to eat because it’s gross, so you leave it there to rot. These are your emotions, bad leftovers.

So the ideal time to deal with emotions is right in the moment. Don’t take home the leftovers, don’t store the emotions away in a box for later. Eat your meal, enjoy it, connect, feel, experience, and let it go.

 

When we find our internal refrigerators full of bad leftovers what do we do? We can let them rot away, and keep stacking new leftovers on top until the fridge stinks so bad we have no choice but to experience either a very unpleasant rotten life day in and out or clean the fridge. Do the healing work whenever you can. However you have to. Schedule it in. 

 

Reach out and talk to me about what healing could look like for you. It’s not the same path for everyone. Not everyone is ready to heal in this lifetime in fact. Some of us are meant to carry this into the next life. Some of us are ready though. 

 

How do you know you’re ready? Healing is scary, it’s hard, there’s a lot of ugly in it, and insecurity at first. 

 

We know it’s worth it though. And we know we’re ready when we’re tired of putting up with the smell of our leftovers.

 

Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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Journaling With Pain

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Journaling With Pain
Journaling with pain is an intimate practice of listening to your wouds.
Healing does not always feel good. I’m not even sure if it feels good 50% of the time
Maybe it only feels good after, or at least on rare bath occasions…. I could really use a bath today. That might happen. (It did not happen)
Sometimes healing is just sitting in your funk and asking where it hurts and digging into the core of the why?
Sometimes it’s patience with things not going according to plan.
Sometimes it’s sitting alone, asking yourself how alone feels, and most importantly facing how it feels with compassion.
These are good moments for exploring through journaling or meditation.
Why does Source gift me with setbacks?
Why does Source want me to face this challenge?
How does Source want me to face this challenge?
What do I need from me right now?
What are my feelings right now?
Do they affect me physically or just emotionally?
Are my emotions affecting others around me?
How would I like my emotions to affect those around me?
What benefit will I be blessed with after I overcome this challenge?
Why am I so blessed with vital learning opportunities?
How do I ideally overcome this challenge?
What would I do differently if I had a do over?
Did I feel any internal alarms sound during this challenge or my reaction to the challenge?
What should I take responsibility for with this setback?
What should I release responsibility over from this challenge?
What action would serve my highest self best when facing this challenge?
Journaling with pain is one of the most healing forms of journaling as it allows your inner wounds to have a true voice and be heard. Acknowledging our wounds and our experiences are important. Asking the right questions to understand the hows and whys of our wounds is healing.
Journaling With Pain

Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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What Does It Take

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What Does It Take

What does it take to heal? What does it take to choose healing? What does it take to choose the uncomfortable to become comfortable?

You may feel trapped in a battle against yourself, and most of your entire life has been programmed to make you feel as if you’re at a disadvantage. You have been programmed to feel this way. You have been programmed to be defective. And the worst lie of them all was the programming that says there’s no hope for change, and that this is as good as it gets because you’re not a perfectly functioning specimen. The good news is, none of it’s true.

Unless you choose to allow it to be true, and surrender to this programming.

So, what you have to go inward to decide, is not if you’re broken, or if what I am saying is even true. But, after all the fight you’ve put in to get this far, are you going to play into the programming and let it victimize you, or are you willing to choose your highest good, your highest potential, the Super Girl inside of you that’s lying in wait? It’s not a simple road, but the red pill never is, but neither is anything worth having I suppose.

The hard reality is, to get to this point where you’re capable of making that decision you really have to get past rock bottom and tear out the entire foundation before rebuilding. You don’t just have to break, you have to get angry at your willingness to be broken. Once you’re sick of your shit, you’ll be able to break free. It’s pretty rare anyone can succeed in this without getting to this point. It helps to remember, God sends angels as our most painful battles and traumas to guide us and move us to precisely where we need to be.

So, you can lean into your reasons, the excuses we’ve allowed to shape our entire beings, that will support you and allow you to remain here, feeling this way in a never-ending cycle, helpless to change it. Or, you can choose the impossible, and I hope you do because it spells I’m Possible, what more powerful words do we need?

I know that sounds way easier than it is. Healing is never easy. It’s never simple. It’s not a pill, drink, diet plan, exercise plan, or therapy session. It’s a war, good versus evil, light versus dark, self versus self, killing off bad habits and reestablishing new positive and empowering habits. It’s duality, creating a new balance, a new world order, all inside your own world while the rest of the world stews in its angst and pain. Which can make it quite lonely as well.

Like learning a new skill or trade, you have to dedicate and be willing to suffer for the greater good of your end result.

It’s strangely easy to sit in our current stagnant state of being and just stay there. It’s safe, reliable. We know just what we’re going to feel. We know no one can take away our joy, because we have already forfeit joy. No one can break us because we’re already broken. What an easy peaceful way to go, to simply drown in it and let it consume us.

The question is, is easy what we really want, or is it just easy?

What Does It Take

 

 

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The Shadow Self

The Shadow Self
The Shadow Self
The shadow self is all the parts of us we have been shoving in imaginary boxes, bottling up, the pieces of us we have suffocated, smothered, and tried to stomp out of existence due to fear of judgment, fear of the unknown, fear of loss. The shadow self also holds all our dormant power, all our hidden strength. These things, these emotions, traumas, strengths all become intertwined as we suppress and hide.
As we do this we can no longer fully support our highest good. So then we seek outside validation. We crave peace and change, so we dye our hair, get a new tattoo, a new piercing, a new job, new spouse.
Does any of this sound familiar yet?
The Shadow Self
I know I need to journal and look deeper into something I have carried for over a decade… and today I intend on addressing this head-on. It’s been building in me all week, desperately trying to get my attention. My Shadow Self is calling me.
Not feeling good enough for my family… not feeling good enough means I don’t feel worthy. How can I ever reclaim my family if I don’t feel worthy of them? Why do I feel this way when I know damn well I am a great mom? Not perfect, but no less great. This is my own pain. Those of you who know my story understand this. But when my kids are here with me I’m bombarded by this overwhelming emotion a lot. If V didn’t like the sandwich I so lovingly made, or the expensive thing I bought goes untouched and unwanted then I feel like I failed. I got S a slushy and those are his favorite but he took one drink and didn’t want the rest, why the hell does that translate into being a failure as a mom? Not even logical! And that’s not to mention my financial failures as a mom. Not being able to afford the shoes when needed and wanted, the better sweatshirts, the games.
There have been so many nos because I couldn’t which made me feel like a failure as a mother, because I wasn’t providing at my own top tier expectations. Then guilt because I am encoding lack and money issues into my children at such a critical age = more guilt.
Anyone else have those mom burdens? Maybe, maybe not.
But they can be healed. I know this because I’ve healed so many other things. Acceptance and admitting to these feelings is a huge first step when addressing our inner negativity.
When we give our pain attention in the right way that’s when it turns from wallowing into healing.
Where do these feelings come from?
How do I best experience these feelings?
What do these feelings need me to hear?
What do I need from me right now to heal?
What is the path of least resistance in my journey to healing?
Write out these questions without yet feeling called to answer them. If journaling is not an option to you right now but you want to initiate this practice to begin implementing these empowerment questions now, touch the fingertips of your left hand onto your heart chakra and ask aloud each question three times. This activates an instant heart-mind coherence that is most powerful and will reap you many rewards.

Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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Cleanse Your Chakras

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Cleanse Your Chakras
Cleanse your chakras easily and effectively every time you shower.  This practice will leave you feeling more refreshed and energized after each shower and help discharge toxicity in the body be it stored in energy form or the physical body.
Many of us are at least familiar with the chakras. This cleansing practice is a powerful method of restoring balance to all layers of the self. Do this in the shower ideally when you wake or after a rough day.
Hold your left hand at the base of your spine, with your right hand three or four inches in front of you above the skin for your first chakra. With your fingers of your right hand spin your chakra counterclockwise, like winding a clock backward, rotating your fingers in a circle.
This eliminates sludge and toxins that adhere to the walls of the chakras.
Rinse your fingers and proceed on to the second chakra, rinsing thoroughly in between each as you move through the chakra system. Rise up to your solar plexus, the third chakra where your self-worth and self-image is stored. Be present in this cleansing process. What comes up for you as you’re turning this dial back, scrubbing the proverbial walls of your sacred energy body? If you suddenly start crying for example, spend extra loving time on this chakra.
Pay attention to your heart chakra, this cleansing process may be a more thorough and more gentle method of energetic “cord cutting” used to release energy connections that no longer serve your highest good. What emotions and thoughts come to you as you cleanse the chakra?
Cleanse The Chakras
Visualize your cleansing, imagine the colors of your chakras, first dull and maybe even dark or black, and how they become more vivid, bright, and vibrant with color as you cleanse each one, being sure to cleanse your fingers between each chakra.
Do you sing in the shower? If so, this is a beautiful way to charge your throat chakra as you cleanse as well. Purify and recharge, speak your truth, face your lies, purse and wash all away that no longer belongs.
Your third eye chakra, your sixth chakra. You may feel pressure headaches, vision impairment, and fall prey to many schemes or lies of others if your third eye is blocked or negatively charged.
The crown chakra, the lotus, seventh chakra, at the top of your head. Turn the dial back, open your mind to release all that no longer serves you. Scrub clean your negative belief system, scrub clean your false programs and internal lies.
If you have an opportunity to play music during your shower this is an excellent time to combine chakra balancing frequencies to your cleansing process.
You can use this practice every day to help purify and strengthen the vibrancy of your chakras. If you don’t feel you have time or forget, just implement this practice whenever you’re able. It will help support your healing and your day to day health and well being.

Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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New Behaviors Create New Behaviors

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New Behaviors Create New Behaviors

New behaviors create new behaviors through a chain reaction, cause and effect.

Are you looking for your new habits?

When you take new actions to create new positive habits, are you looking for them and applauding yourself?

Each time you catch your new behavior you train yourself into the habit better as well as into self-love when you applaud yourself in some way. Give yourself a high-five in the mirror, a pat on the back, a big smile; in any way that suits you just be sure to mark the moment.

When you become aware of these behaviors you will learn to automatically seek out the behavior, causing you to do two things. You will 1, create the behavior; 2, become MORE self-aware.

Self-awareness is an empowering tool, but it must be used wisely. When we become more self-aware we also see more of our ‘flaws’ or ‘bad habits’ and a lot of times our automatic reaction is to degrade ourselves and punish ourselves and then those around us.

So what can we do when we’re trying to improve our self-awareness but it’s backfiring because we’re beating ourselves up like you’re trapped in a MFA fight with your worst enemy- yourself?

PAUSE

Breathe, count to three as you allow yourself to become aware that sure, you’ve done something entirely human that doesn’t meet your own standard, but also become aware now of your limiting self-talk. Slow down.

Ask yourself, is this going to matter in a decade? What about in the next five years? Three? One? A month from now? Tomorrow? An hour? Depending on the answer you can easily and quickly evaluate the severity and you can probably figure that it really wasn’t a big deal. Even if it is a big deal, it’s necessary to fall down. If we never fall down, how can we learn to get back up?

Now that we’ve established that not only is this necessary but recoverable, there’s no reason to berate yourself a second further. Reassure yourself that everyone makes mistakes and that it’s necessary for everyone to grow and to learn. Simplify this process for yourself. Try a simple question to deescalate yourself when you’re spiraling into negativity. “How would I best like to react to this?”

You can allow that to lead you to other simple questions if you need to identify a solution. “What do I have to learn from this?”

“What’s the best end result of this situation?” Sometimes we need to work backward to identify the best path forward. So what’s the best end goal/result of your situation? Now once we can identify that, we can work backward and find the paths available to our results.

“What’s the simplest path to my goal?” Usually, the best way is the simplest way. If we accept this and look for the simplest way to our ideal end goal we are holding in mind the importance of our end result which maintains an alignment of staying true to the best path forward organically. When we focus on looking for the “best” path forward rather than the simplest, we begin to overanalyze and can get overwhelmed quickly with trying to analyze what’s “best” to a standard which we may have no ruler for.

The key is to find the right questions for your situation. This is the starting point of self-recovery.

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Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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Gratitude and Destiny

How are gratitude and destiny connected?
What if embracing gratitude and destiny could realign you to your true path?
Without the practice of unconditional gratitude, I never would have been able to create this program, let alone understand the power in this process.
Everyone knows what gratitude is. We’ve surely all heard about the practice of gratitude. It’s a well-known practice for journaling. Many people use morning and evening gratitude practices.
A couple of years ago I started using gratitude throughout my day. My anxiety and depression had come to a peak. For some reason, for me to find any healing in any area of my life I often have to come to absolute rock bottom before I find my lift-off. Maybe that’s the way for a lot of people, I don’t know. Stubbornness and determination though are part of my makeup. I would say that’s why I’m here, too.
I had decided to embrace a belief system to give me a new foundation to build from. A place to create sanity in a world of chaos.
This belief system said every single thing happens for a reason if we can see it or not. Good bad and ugly it all has a purpose in my life. Most often I have learned it’s about some lesson but sometimes it’s absolutely physical. For example, I was supposed to start a part-time job today. Yesterday they called to tell me I couldn’t start until Thursday. At exactly 7:05 Monday night when moments before I had been perfectly fine I was suddenly the next victim of my son’s stomach flu. How would it have panned out for me had I needed to call in my first day? Everything happens for a reason. Embracing this belief system has created so much empowerment in my life.
It was this belief system that demanded I dig deeper into gratitude. I started seeing some of the alternatives of what would’ve happened had x not happened. I started becoming grateful for everything. Even bad things and their valuable lessons.
It helped when I heard Dr. Joe Dispenza give a talk, telling a story about a woman who’d been raped and suffered every night since with horrible night terrors. She’d gone through years of therapy, which lead her down the path of alternative therapies, mindfulness, and then one of Dispenza’s group retreats with meditation. On day two of her retreat Source spoke to her and said, twelve years ago I sent four angels disguised as rapists. She was suddenly liberated. Without that experience, she never would have taken her journey. She never experienced another nightmare and went on to use the gifts of her journey to help others.
Hearing that said, I sent you angels disguised as trauma and pain…. This has been so empowering. I’m confident that I’m always in the right place at the right time, and when you have that confidence suddenly things start going better, turning more in your favor, because you’re always in the right place at the right time for all the best reasons so great things start aligning with you.
Gratitude aligns you with the respect of all things happen for a reason, so you must be in the right place at the right time, so whatever you’re experiencing must be necessary. Now that you know it’s necessary you can look closer and discover why. Sometimes, just asking the universe why heals the wounds of life patterns because it allows for the answer to come to realization.
How do you practice gratitude?
What has it done for you in your life?
What does the practice of gratitude mean for you?

Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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What Makes This Important

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It’s important that I make clear, for the sake of my path forward, that I understand what makes this important to me?

Once or twice I’ve mentioned my past and dropped vague mention to my journey of healing. Vague mentions are about all I ever commit to in regards to myself. Anytime I can redirect attention off of me, it’s already done. Which is so contradictory to my inane desire to be an entrepreneur, and to carve my own beautiful and unique path.

 

Social media has been a struggle for me for quite a few years, so when I stand here now, trying to establish my presence, it feels foreign. 

 

I think what will keep me here is this though… The time I have been waiting for has arrived, and my success deserves the sacrifice of my comfort if that’s all that’s holding me back. But what drives my ability to overcome that discomfort and acknowledge my worthiness has been in great thanks to the book. Being able to surrender that my success is not just critical to me, it’s critical to everyone, it’s critical to the universe. 

 

This is my purpose, or at the very least, one portion of that greater picture.

 

During the production of this book, I find myself faced with an overwhelm of options. This book is a seed, a seed that can blossom into any number of beautiful flowers. How I care for and water the seed will determine what it blossoms into. 

 

This book touches on one of the greatest pain points we all face. Our own inner voice, our inner dialogue that addresses how we speak to ourselves. This is the reflection of our true self-worth. This is what holds us back. This is our inner monster setting fires, lighting the match to our self-destruction. 

 

Only, not only do we look at this dragon inside of us, the program itself is the sword that slays the dragon. I know this because it’s working for other people and everyone who has tried it so far. There’s power here that I feel blessed to have discovered and obligated to share.

 

I know that has to shape the destiny of this book. What’s important here? Sharing the message. The message is simple, the training, the process, once you learn how to break down our barriers it comes so quick and easy. Why is it so quick and easy?

 

The answer isn’t important. I teach that too. There is magic in the surrender. 

 

We’ve been coached since birth that when you ask a question you must find and receive an answer. It’s taught when you’re asked a question you’re expected to either A. answer or B. excuse your lack of knowing to go seek the answer, but nevertheless, there must be an answer. But what if you didn’t need an answer? How would not receiving an answer affect the outcome? How does no answer provide more opportunity for bigger answers or even multiple answers?

 

These are all keys in the process of reprogramming your core systems, the baseline structure.

 

What makes this important? Even Xanax can’t shut up your inner monologue until you pass out. Valium doesn’t make you hate yourself less the next day. This workbook is the pill we’ve all been looking for. Or it’s been mine and has been for several others too. It’s such a blessing to finally be here, finally be able to write this. How fortunate am I?

 

Until next, unique souls.

 

Love always,

Momma Faye

 

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Behind The Scenes “The Girl From 999”

Behind The Scenes “The Girl From 999”

 

I love history, all history. I nerd out on historical documentaries on a regular basis. Sometimes, it’s the only way I can fall asleep.

I also love all things paranormal, fantasy, and scifi. This is not a secret, as you will see from my heavily laden paranormal bookshelf, with just a couple of exceptions on it.

The Girl From 999 will be my ultimate tribute to history and my country.

Born on the full moon eve of Summer Solstice of year 999, Catori is our true protagonist, though that won’t become too apparent until we are well submerged into our story. This was a difficult story to start, because where do you start when you are writing the origin story of the birth of a nation, not just the origin of one powerful immortal who finds herself tied to the country she grows up with.

Imagine coming to America with the Vikings, 500 years before Columbus was even born. This is where the story really began, so this is where the story had to start. We start with Catori’s family. Her mother comes to the continent as a child, with very little understanding as to why they’ve abandoned their home in the Netherlands to come to a wild land of natives where they have nothing and no one to help them.

While they go through many hardships, life is good. They have each other, and the land is good to them. The birth of a child ignites the birth of a country. When the Vikings came to the continent they were generous enough to bring with them diseases the natives had never encountered before. This would be the first of many challenges that propel us through the growing pains of America and a powerful young witch.

I really wanted to experience history through this series. So I knew our protagonist would be immortal. There is just something entrancing about immortality, especially the fantasy of seeing history happen firsthand. Originally, I thought to start with the voyage of the Mayflower, but that wasn’t where America’s story started. Just like how starting with Catori as a young woman would be starting the story in the middle rather than the beginning.  I want to show America when the Indians reignes supreme.  Yes, this does mean we will follow all the great tragedies as well as the most defining events of our time.

This makes it difficult to create a balance for the flow of the story. There is a lot more tragedy than positivity in our first thousand years. Because of this, I really feel it was important to show the love of Catori’s family and how bonded to the land they become.

As we evolve through each chapter, this really becomes the story about the greatest patriot to ever exist. Catori is the only person to live through every major event to turn a wild continent into the United States of America. She helps the Indians, she brokers peace between them and the Pilgrims. She suffers with the land through some very ugly growing pains. Traumatized by the war against the Indians, she retreats deeper into the wild until the revolutionary war lands on her doorstep, forcing her to get involved.

Catori becomes an integral part of the development of our country by happenstance, first by becoming immortal, then by trying to survive the ambitious plans of man.

War after war, injustice after injustice, she simply can’t turn a blind eye and finds herself in the middle of some incredibly important moments, and through this helps define our country. Ultimately she surrenders to her fate, and accepts that she has a responsibility to be a support and takes on a more serious role.

Clearly, not even an Epic High Fantasy could come close to covering this much history and this much story. So is born the Saga of The Girl From 999.

I can’t wait to see where this one’s going to go. Whatever happens, I have a feeling I’ll be as surprised as anyone.

Thank you for coming by. This has been your Behind-The-Scenes sneak peak into “The Girl From 999”

I hope I can do it justice.